Ascension

Sometimes while sinking, we must reach the very bottom before we can start our ascent back into the light. This is the journey I am beginning...

Platform

Here is my latest poetic creation for you to enjoy, or not... "Platform" Slow paces move : one forward / Wipe the eyes : smear the face / They wouldn't recognize : rigid features / Live on a platform : to exhibit life / Passersby never : an audience make / Movements- ever slight : do not garner glances / Stars go out : the silence shudders / Live in the rain : to melt away / ~Jeremy Hill *Live is used as a verb, not an adjective. **The system would not allow me to use my regular display, so (:) means end of a line and (/) means end of a stanza. There is no punctuation except after the word "Movements".

Suddenly nothing's changed...

So I guess I am not moving for now. Funny how some things change direction on you when you least expect them to. I've decided, however, that this is a good thing. Normally, I let the change around me dictate how I react to my life. I am now reevaluting this stance. I think my lesson this time around (there is always a lesson) is to make the changes happen from within, not from without. It is a little frightening to step outside of the comfort zone I have built around myself (I think I have added on too much in the last couple of years). But it is exciting to think of what adventures may lie just out my front door...

Rebirth of SLiCk

I've recently had a number of invigorating experiences and time spent with people I enjoy. Maybe it's because it's spring- a time of rebirth, or maybe I'm just sick of nothing eventful happening for me, but I have lately felt a continual urge to uproot from this moldy bed I'm in and frolic with the other mobile creatures. I've started this process of ambulation by looking for a new place to live. That always livens things up for a bit. This move will join the plethora of previous relocations that have all ended with thuds. I'm hoping to find somewhere I will feel comfortable hanging my hat and roommates that will allow me to put that hat back on and go hit the town with them. People are an important part of this balanced existence and I've been malnourished!

Obstacles and Strengths

It has been a while since my last post. I think I've been afraid of the standard of thought I had set for myself. But I have recently realized that there will always be obstacles to everything. It is a matter of understanding that there is a way through them. Sometimes it will be around or over, but mostly it will be through. I feel that we are tested most strongly by the components that make up our strengths. If we recognize these strengths, and are proud of them (as we should be), we will see that we want to push through darkness and thickness to embrace these strengths. Allowing ourselves to be consumed by the hardship will only keep us further away from the joy that is found in those personal strengths. I want to live in harmony with my gifts, not in dissonance with them. The morning follows the night bringing with it the light that inspires us to go onward into the darkness and emerge triumphant.

Living Imagination

I just watched Finding Neverland last night and loved it! It was like watching a play, intimate and involving. It was one of the warmest movies I've seen in a long time, and yet, like nothing else I've ever seen. It was very inspiring. It made me hope and see that there are people out there like me- that imagine their lives to be something very different than they really are. Like living another life inside of your own. Not like schizo or anything, but like being an actor and playing different parts at different times to break up the monotony.

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Try too hard

I've decided I try too hard at perfection and in so doing I miss opportunities for living. I try to plan my life and end up missing out on it instead. I want to learn to allow myself some lead way for experiencing rather than cutting myself short because something may not work on paper. I want to be free of my own prison. I want to fly and breathe and feel the earth in my hands (but only if there's a sink nearby to wash it off afterwards- you see what I mean about the perfection!). My brother thinks I need to drink every now and again to loosen up, but I feel that I just need more creative outlets and fun-loving people around me. I think it would be marvelous to throw pottery and start painting and join a gym (the body must be kept in a position to allow the mind to grow). So here's to an entrance, a new path...

In the beginning...

In the beginning, Jeremy saw that it was good...and thus began the creation of creation...