Lucky Eleven

The New Whatever

2008-11-16T16:27:00.009-07:00

Hello out there. I know I haven't kept this site up. To be honest, I probably won't. I may write a little something now and then, but I am much better at random scatterings. So I announce my current project site: The New Whatever. This will be a place for me to copy and paste the thing(s) that I find inspiring at any given moment. It is a multimedia mash-up and will be like my own little art gallery/museum. The first unveiling is already at hand... The New Whatever

Bibliophile

2008-04-13T20:35:00.009-06:00

Of my many addictions, my most intense at the moment is to books- all sorts of books. The most common varieties are: coffee table, children's (mostly ones that I remember from my youth), cookbooks, design books and especially vintage (predating 1950). Of course there are others, but these categories comprise my main collection. Securing most of my finds has previously consisted to sporadic visits to the local Desert Industries with a few online purchases. But as of late, I find myself obsessed with a visit, sometimes two, to said D.I. The books are fairly inexpensive, though I think they are starting to catch on to the trend (I am not the only one bagging books) and have started to raise some prices based on size and age of the bound volumes. Even still, they are a steal. I have not once come out of a shopping stop empty-handed. I'm like a fiend! I make my rounds and grab everything that might have some merit to me and then find a spot to dig through and find the real gems from there. It is a process that I very much enjoy. But I am starting to run into a space issue. I want to display most, if not all of my prized finds. They are great treasures to me, though I have read very few of them. My philosophy is that people should surround themselves with the things that make them happy. I am a collector so I am ensconced in heaps of my precious things- books, movies, music, art, friends, the list goes on... Anyway, here is a work by artist Rogier van der Weyden from 1460 that I recently found in one of my books that I am very taken with. It is entitled, "Portrait of a Lady".

Done and Undone and Starting Again

2008-04-10T20:26:00.003-06:00

I don't think my mind has completely wrapped itself around my finished-ness of a full year of school yet. All of a sudden, I have all of this free time, well, not so much free as catch-up time. I look around me and see shambles. Unfortunately I am not in complete decay, but some things have fallen by the wayside during my journey of educated betterment: my body, my room, my connectedness to self, among other scattered states of being. Not all was loss- there was gain as well. I have a deep sense of accomplishment in my abilities to progress in an area I hope will make me a living. I have become slightly better at managing my time (that's a tricksey one as I don't feel I'll ever be completely soluble to time constraints). I am steps closer to living my dream and that is comforting. Not sure what disjointed musings you, dear Reader, will find here as I begin again, but please take them for what they are- small parts of an (as yet) unknown whole.

Coming Soon...

2008-04-03T00:57:00.002-06:00

New original thoughts! But not yet. My mind and hands belong to drafting for one more week...

Inside Out

2005-08-20T21:16:00.000-06:00

I have been wondering why things haven't been changing for me lately, and just realized that it is because I have done nothing to change them! Sounds simple enough, but was difficult to see that I was the one holding my holding pattern. Little changes here and there add up and can bring me closer to where I want to be. I've decided I need to work on me, from the inside as well as the outside. There are things I can do. Such as painting. It is an outward expression and activity, but it has so much to do with what goes on inside. I have had the canvases and brushes sitting in my room for months. They have been as blank as I have been feeling. But I am trying to remedy all of that by being active and involved in my life again! Like today, I went to a little Italian festival downtown and caught a movie with a friend. Little things, but they make life more exciting and stimulating- a stimulus that ushers improvement.

Just don't know...

2005-07-12T09:36:00.000-06:00

A lot of my posts recently have been laced with an air of despair. Unfortunately, this will be another one of those. Like Jack of The White Stripes sings, "I just don't know what to do with myself". I feel like things go well for a few days, but then everything falls, like a cake if you open the oven door too prematurely. I am proud of myself for at least getting to the gym as frequently as I have been- five days a week! But this is purely superficial, everything inside is still out of shape. Somebody help me get right!!!

Traveling Thoughts

2005-06-27T14:39:00.000-06:00

I was just at home in Pocatello this past weekend and really enjoyed my drive there. It's amazing to me where my mind goes when given free reign and with changing stimulus. Little realizations that are mostly forgotten (as I am not prolific in the writing while driving combo), beautiful views that bring you to ponder the more expansive views of mortality and just a time to be free of daily pressures.

Unanswerable Question

2005-06-22T14:11:00.000-06:00

What to do?! I get so bored sitting at work and then go home with no energy to do anything!

Blah with Visions of More

2005-06-15T18:00:00.000-06:00

I am just plugging along at a job I don't like, living with roommates who intimidate me and wishing for a bit of the fabulous existence that seems to swirl above and around me but always just out of reach! It may all sound abysmal, but I am really doing just fine. I sent off some of my recent poetry last night to everyone in my network. I think people get bored of it, but I get a thrill sharing it all the same. I've been spending a lot of time online at work lately and exploring the lives of friends of friends. People are so interesting! It can be a small world at times, but there are always big things going on for someone.

Only Human?

2005-06-02T15:15:00.000-06:00

We all make excuses. I am a king in that realm. But as the old reliable "I'm only human" came into my mind I thought, "Well that's just not true". Human and mortal we are, but not only. These mortal shells are simply homes for the immortal that we eternally are. That gives us a power undeniable- a help and urge to move onward. We are told that with God, all things are possible. So with the compound of flesh and spirit, both of which God supplied us, we are really not as weak as we allow ourselves to be sometimes.

Ascension

2005-05-19T16:54:00.000-06:00

Sometimes while sinking, we must reach the very bottom before we can start our ascent back into the light. This is the journey I am beginning...

Platform

2005-05-16T12:34:00.000-06:00

Here is my latest poetic creation for you to enjoy, or not... "Platform" Slow paces move : one forward / Wipe the eyes : smear the face / They wouldn't recognize : rigid features / Live on a platform : to exhibit life / Passersby never : an audience make / Movements- ever slight : do not garner glances / Stars go out : the silence shudders / Live in the rain : to melt away / ~Jeremy Hill *Live is used as a verb, not an adjective. **The system would not allow me to use my regular display, so (:) means end of a line and (/) means end of a stanza. There is no punctuation except after the word "Movements".

Suddenly nothing's changed...

2005-05-11T17:47:00.000-06:00

So I guess I am not moving for now. Funny how some things change direction on you when you least expect them to. I've decided, however, that this is a good thing. Normally, I let the change around me dictate how I react to my life. I am now reevaluting this stance. I think my lesson this time around (there is always a lesson) is to make the changes happen from within, not from without. It is a little frightening to step outside of the comfort zone I have built around myself (I think I have added on too much in the last couple of years). But it is exciting to think of what adventures may lie just out my front door...

Rebirth of SLiCk

2005-05-03T13:33:00.000-06:00

I've recently had a number of invigorating experiences and time spent with people I enjoy. Maybe it's because it's spring- a time of rebirth, or maybe I'm just sick of nothing eventful happening for me, but I have lately felt a continual urge to uproot from this moldy bed I'm in and frolic with the other mobile creatures. I've started this process of ambulation by looking for a new place to live. That always livens things up for a bit. This move will join the plethora of previous relocations that have all ended with thuds. I'm hoping to find somewhere I will feel comfortable hanging my hat and roommates that will allow me to put that hat back on and go hit the town with them. People are an important part of this balanced existence and I've been malnourished!

Obstacles and Strengths

2005-04-18T13:48:00.000-06:00

It has been a while since my last post. I think I've been afraid of the standard of thought I had set for myself. But I have recently realized that there will always be obstacles to everything. It is a matter of understanding that there is a way through them. Sometimes it will be around or over, but mostly it will be through. I feel that we are tested most strongly by the components that make up our strengths. If we recognize these strengths, and are proud of them (as we should be), we will see that we want to push through darkness and thickness to embrace these strengths. Allowing ourselves to be consumed by the hardship will only keep us further away from the joy that is found in those personal strengths. I want to live in harmony with my gifts, not in dissonance with them. The morning follows the night bringing with it the light that inspires us to go onward into the darkness and emerge triumphant.

Living Imagination

2005-03-31T15:41:00.000-07:00

I just watched Finding Neverland last night and loved it! It was like watching a play, intimate and involving. It was one of the warmest movies I've seen in a long time, and yet, like nothing else I've ever seen. It was very inspiring. It made me hope and see that there are people out there like me- that imagine their lives to be something very different than they really are. Like living another life inside of your own. Not like schizo or anything, but like being an actor and playing different parts at different times to break up the monotony.

More...

2005-03-28T18:19:00.000-07:00

Please visit my additional blog at http://spaces.msn.com/members/jerslists where I indulge my passion for list-making and organization.

Try too hard

2005-03-28T17:59:00.000-07:00

I've decided I try too hard at perfection and in so doing I miss opportunities for living. I try to plan my life and end up missing out on it instead. I want to learn to allow myself some lead way for experiencing rather than cutting myself short because something may not work on paper. I want to be free of my own prison. I want to fly and breathe and feel the earth in my hands (but only if there's a sink nearby to wash it off afterwards- you see what I mean about the perfection!). My brother thinks I need to drink every now and again to loosen up, but I feel that I just need more creative outlets and fun-loving people around me. I think it would be marvelous to throw pottery and start painting and join a gym (the body must be kept in a position to allow the mind to grow). So here's to an entrance, a new path...

In the beginning...

2005-03-25T16:36:00.000-07:00

In the beginning, Jeremy saw that it was good...and thus began the creation of creation...